Andrew is going to ice hockey camp this summer, so I am going too. I need to be with him this summer, I don’t want to lose him to my cousin.

Today I found out that Andrew is going away to hockey camp for July and August. He told me that he used to play when he was younger and wanted to sharpen his skills so he can get back into it. I found out information about it, and that there’s a girls division. So I signed up.

Now I have to convince my parents to let me go. I think they might let me, they were trying to get me to go to lacrosse camp this summer, but I refused because I did not want to leave home, lol. So this is kinda like the same thing… Sort of.

Anyways, I know how to ice skate, my brother has been playing hockey for so many years, so he encouraged me to learn. Luckily, I have convinced my brother to help me, to get ready for camp. I told him the whole story of how I have to go, and about Andrew. My brother thinks that I would not be in this mess if I just said yes to prom. I know he is right, but I also want to go because i have decided that it would be great to get away from my parents for 2 whole months.

Wow 2 whole months away from my parents.. and not having to hear, what are your plans for the future, blah, blah, blah. Wouldn’t that be awesome?

Anonymous asked: Don't let your insecurities stand in your way love! Don't miss out on prom, find a dress that makes you feel beautiful and stick to your plan. You're not going to embarrass Andrew. If he didn't want to go with you, he wouldn't have asked you or agreed to go. Have fun :)

Thanks for your support. But I can’t go with him anymore, it’s too late he already asked my skinny cousin to prom. I don’t care, prom is not for girls who look like me anyways. I’ll wait until next year. I can’t do anything about my height but I can about my weight. Next year I am going to make sure that I am really really skinny just in time for prom. I have 1 whole year, and I am not going to be in this situation next time.

My grandparents managed to convince my parents to reduce my punishment.

I am getting my car back this Friday!!! Yay!

Anonymous asked: "Why do my parents treat me like a push over when I act like a push over?" Let me think for a slither of a microsecond here, I think I fell asleep halfway through the question.

You’re so right I am a pushover… It’s just hard because I hate letting my parents down…

Yay! I found out my Nonna and Nonno are coming tomorrow to stay with us this weekend because it’s Nonna’s 60th birthday this Saturday, and there’s going to be a huge party at our house!!!! I am so happy, maybe they will convince my parents that I should not be grounded… crying to your grandparents is like apealing to a higher court!

Nonna and Nonno, my grandparents are coming all the from Italy! They moved back there a few years ago. They speak English really well, and Italian really well, they even know French. Anyways, they are my dad’s parents. I love them so much, they are awesome grandparents, and they are so young for grandparents. I am so excited that they are staying with us the whole weekend. This is perfect timing, I have an Italian project due Monday and a test, so they can help me!!!! Also, I know that they, especially Nonna, can help get my car back. I miss my car, I love driving to school and home, and not dealing with so many people on the bus. I also love hanging out in the back seat of my car, well, SUV, and just relaxing and study without having to deal with my loud brothers at the house. I want it back… I also love it so much because it’s something my parents gave me that they did not trust my brothers with, so it made me feel like for once, I was favored over my perfect super athletic older brothers.

Anyways, this is going to be a great weekend… I am just going to have to have to control myself around so much Italian food at this party. I love Italian food so much… At times like this it’s very hard being Italian American.

LOL!!!!!!! My parents are so N. Korea… Only there would a kid get punished for getting a 92.

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Yesterday did not go so well, my parents were not happy about my grades because I dropped some points in Honors English, I got a 92, and they were very angry with me. So now I am grounded, I got my car taken away for 1 month!!!!! I feel so stupid because I actually thought they were going to be happy with my grades…

I am so angry, I actually thought that they would be proud of me. My average is over 102%. The thing that made me really angry was that they took my car away for getting a 92!!!! My cousin Erin’s parents give her money if she gets 80s. Life is so unfair. I wish I was her, I wish that my parents were happy with my grades like hers are, and I wish that I was blonde and skinny like her. No wonder Andrew and other guys like her better, she has a perfect life.

I can understand if my parents grounded me because I failed, but I got a 92, I don’t understand how I got grounded. My brothers and I get grounded for grades below 85, so why all of the sudden I get grounded for a 92. Why are they so harsh with me? I think it’s because they want me to go to Princeton so bad, they gave up on my brothers… They want one of their children to go to Princeton University like they did.

So when they explained to me why I am grounded they said that I need to be taught a lesson for poor grades in English, and that a 92 in a language that I have been speaking all my life is unacceptable, and could hurt my chances of getting into AP English next year.

Ugh, my parents are so stupid, I told them that you need a 92 in honors to get into an AP class, so I am good. They did not want to hear it, and they emailed my English teacher to schedule a meeting to discuss what I need to be doing to improve my “bad” grades. Today when I saw my English teacher he asked me why my parents are so pushy, and he told me that he’ll tell my parents good things about me and that I am going to AP English next year. Why are my parents so fucking crazy?

I went next door to Andrew’s house to tell him that I don’t want to go to prom. I did not get into details, I just said that I have social anxiety issues… He seemed cool about it. I don’t think he cared…

20 minutes after I leave his house, I get a text from my skinny, blonde, cheerleader cousin Erin that Andrew asked her to prom. And that bitch said yes, even she knew I liked him… Ugh. So I got so mad at her, and she said that she likes him now, and does not care. She’s so shallow, she only likes him now because he got hot. but I been liking him. WTF????

I got my report card today. I did really well. I am so happy, I can’t wait until my parents come home from work, I think they will be really happy!

My Grades:

AP American History  94

Honors English  92

Honors Pre-calc 98

AP Statistics 98

Honors Italian (3rd year)  96

Honors Physics 99

AP Psychology 95

Weighted Average: 102.85%

(AP classes are weighted 10%, honors classes are 5%)

dreamingmarionette asked: Hi Gabrie. C: I saw you while I was browsing the SAT tags, but then I read your about me and some of your recent posts. I think you are absolutely awesome and your journey is so... inspiring? I'm not sure what would be a good word to describe it, but I support you! ^o^/ I hope you are able to lose enough weigh so that you're healthy and happy. C:

Thank you so much. You really made my day. You’re so sweet.

Anonymous asked: Wow, that's rather selfish of you. Poor Andrew.

I don’t want to embarrass him… I know he does not really like me that way. So it’s not selfish because I am thinking of him.

gettingtomygoals:

I’m totally pika all the damn time! haha =)

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I took the SAT today! I hope I did well so I don’t have to take it again. I can’t sit through that shit again.

the only thing I am confident with was the math part. Math is really easy for me. I need to do well, I have to get into Princeton… I am under so much pressure.

I decided that I am not going to junior prom. It’s only a month away and at the rate I am losing weight, I’ll still be way too fat for prom!

Andrew and I were supposed to go to the prom together as friends. I thought I would be able to lose enough weight by then. I am not stupid, I was not expecting to be skinny by prom… I just wanted to not be too fat. Currently, I am still too fat. I atleast wanted to be a size 12 (USA) by prom. But it looks like that’s not going to happen.

To top it all off, Andrew has lost weight, and toned up. It happened so fast!!!!!! I am so jealous of him, and I kind of been avoiding him a bit lately. I always thought he was hot, but now he looks just so amazing and perfect. His face changed and became so chiseled and handsome… Plus, lots of girls have been noticing him, and flirting with him. These girls are all so tall, and thin and pretty. How could I compete with them?

Thus, I made a decision, I am not going to prom. I really don’t want to embarrass myself at prom, having everyone think he’s only with me because he feels sorry for me. Plus, I am still too fat to wear a dress in public. Most importantly I don’t want to embarrass him. I love him and I don’t want people to make fun of him for going with a short fat girl. I have not told Andrew that I do not want to go… I am scared he’ll be angry, but its for his own good. I don’t want to embarrass him. Am I doing the right thing?